I have had to learn quickly to tolerate patience, I mean, more than I have had to in the past. I say this because God is teaching me the patience of waiting for an email, a phone call, even just a word from my husband. And of course the BIG patience of all, being patient and waiting for my husband to come home. And when you go from always seeing your husband and talking to him whenever and wherever you wanted to, needless to say, it is INCREDIBLY challenging thing.
BUT, even though I may only get a limited number of time to talk or see my husband, I am thankful for that. Though my attitude and feelings may seem upsetting or I may think it's "unfair", I know I need to transform my thoughts into thoughts of thankfulness and gratefulness. Every second I talk to my husband are the best moments in my life and I value him and our time together, as people value Gold.
Patience stirs up many emotions, especially in a woman.....especially in a wife! I have been going through every emotion you can possibly think of. Frustration, anger, irritation, jealousy, sadness, complaining, reality, and all others. But I think that God allows that to happen, so that we will fully rely on Him to take care of things. And God has been whooping my butt in all that.
And I will admit it, I hate that he is gone and away from me. I do, I am not going to lie. I am sure every military wife you would talk to, would say that they never wished for their husband to go overseas.
Aside from the fact that he overseas, I am very proud of my husband, and I love him with all of my heart, he is the most special man who always takes my breath away. He means everything to me and I will always be by his side. I love you baby!!
But I think my new word that I hate, is the word "adjustment". I think that is the word that Ryan hates the most as well.
Life is not like it used to be right now, but I know that is only temporary. And God has really been allowing a mess of stuff for me right now, but He has given me moments that I am very blessed to have. And thank God for the Military Wives. Military wives are incredible human beings, they are my new role models and I have turned to them soo much in this time right now, and I know I will always need to. The insights, prayers, and words of wisdom they have given me are in my blood now. So thank you Susie, Kim, Carol, Azalea, Peg, and the other wonderful Military wives I have the honor of being friends with.
Ry, I miss you so much and I love you with all my heart! I am with you always and we are in this together. I am so proud of you.
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